I got a second chance at a first love after 9 years...

[Peaceshelly]

This man was my first love....

We met when I applied for a job. He was my boss, and after about 6 months the sparks started flying. He really liked me, I really liked him, but neither one of us spoke up! It was a small clinic, just him, me and his mother. One night, his mom and I were supposed to go to dinner at this new restaurant and she backed out and he said he wanted to go.

Well, that night, after I left him, I noticed he left his checkbook in my car, so I went back to his house and finally broke down and told him I liked him...alot. And if I lost my job, so-be-it!

He said he felt the same and had for a long time. We were inseperable after that. We were together for 2 months before he asked me to marry him. He actually lived with his family since he was only in practice for a year or so and in all honestly, his family CONTROLLED HIM. I knew I was going to have issues there, but they seemed to like me alot even before we got together. We began looking at houses and the reality of it sunk in. He never told me why, but I showed up for work one day and he fired me and broke up with me at the same time!! I was devastated. I never saw him or spoke to him since. NEVER, not even to ask why. I walked out of his office, and into a new life. I was upset, naturally, but I tried to be the strong one...waiting for him to call me. Then months went by and I felt like I couldn't call him.... I moved away, met another man, and married him. I was never in love with my husband and married him out of fear of being alone.That was 1997.

Fast forward to October of 2005....

I was sitting at my computer and got an interesting email that led me to his website. I was in shock. He was still handsome. Successfull. I had followed him somewhat by a couple of internet searches, etc. But nothing major and no contact.

By this time, I am divorced. I decided, "what the hell...he still gives me butterflies..."

I send him a pretty generic email...something like "hi, saw your webpage and wanted to say hi"..I don't remember cause it took me what seems like forever to hit "SEND".

Within minutes I had a email response. This time it took me what seemed like minutes to "OPEN"!!! I was shaking. I thought he is going to say "who is this?". It was him saying..."omg! How are you! I have thought about you!"

From that email came the generic, what I have been doing, where he is living, etc. Then I got the email that changed my way of thinking. He sent this reply saying that he never forgot how he remembered how "enchanting and mesmerising my eyes are". I knew then, he hadn't let me go either.

We started emailing sometimes 3-4 times a day. It took us two months to meet up after we established that we still had it for each other and never let the good things go.

We have been together since. I am more in love today than I have ever been. He is amazing. His family is still somewhat controlling, and doesn't really approve of us. He won't really tell me why, but I think he told them something back then that wasn't exactly true to cover our breakup.

None of it matters now. When we recall our past, we think of all the fun we had.

So, other than I love to share my story...I wanted to say, that butterfly feeling for someone that never goes away, it is real. I don't necessarily think there is only one person for everyone, but if it is real, don't fight it.

Don't settle. Life is too short. Let them know you still care, are sorry or whatever you have to do to put yourself out there. Don't ever let yourself say, "I wish I would have....". Just do it and hope for the best. It is true, let them go and if it was meant to be, they will come back to you.

Good luck in love all...

Our relationship isn't perfect, and I could actually use some advise on his parents/his relationship with his parents advise.

*He really tries so hard to please them.

*Lives about a mile from them.

*Kind of hides me from them.

*Isn't honest with them about me.

*Puts their happiness before his own.

Anyway, peace ya'll!!!

[LaraV]

So did he say why he broke up with you in the first place?