my ex is lost, and feels he doesnt know himself

[Josalina]

thank you swirly, i feel much better today, went for a lovely walk down the beach after dropping my sister off at college, it was beautiful, the sun was shining, the sea was sparkerling and the sea breeze was lovely.

on my way home i had to drive past my exs side road, he was going into his road as i went by, we waved at each other, but he didnt look very jolly at all, i felt so much stronger, i came to realise as much as i love this man, there is so many other beautiful things around me, sounds corny i know ha ha but it made me feel better, if he contacts now or if he doesnt at least i know he still knows i am out and about.

i am just gonna enjoy the world and what it has to offer if he dont wanna be part of that then stuff him ha ha.

it was only yeaterday night i dreamt i had split up with andrew and when i woke i thought for a split second it may of been a dream, then when i realise it had happened in reality as well i think that is was upset me a bit for the day. but glad im having a more up day today.

hope u r doing ok?

i got a christmas book turn up in the post today already! lol, cant believe how fast time flys.

take care

[swirly27]

thank you swirly, i feel much better today, went for a lovely walk down the beach after dropping my sister off at college, it was beautiful, the sun was shining, the sea was sparkerling and the sea breeze was lovely.

on my way home i had to drive past my exs side road, he was going into his road as i went by, we waved at each other, but he didnt look very jolly at all, i felt so much stronger, i came to realise as much as i love this man, there is so many other beautiful things around me, sounds corny i know ha ha but it made me feel better, if he contacts now or if he doesnt at least i know he still knows i am out and about.

i am just gonna enjoy the world and what it has to offer if he dont wanna be part of that then stuff him ha ha.

it was only yeaterday night i dreamt i had split up with andrew and when i woke i thought for a split second it may of been a dream, then when i realise it had happened in reality as well i think that is was upset me a bit for the day. but glad im having a more up day today.

hope u r doing ok?

i got a christmas book turn up in the post today already! lol, cant believe how fast time flys.

take care

 

That is wonderful, you sound so much better today! Hope it stays that way from now on. I hope I get to that point too here soon. I think I am just getting in my own way and being my own worst enemy. I am just down on myself, feeling sorry for myself here and there and can't seem to get over the fact that this one boy doesn't like me and hasn't contacted me. But, I am starting to consistently feel better overall, even though it might now sound like it! LOL

 

That is great that you took a wonderful walk and realized all the other beautiful things out there. I try and do that too, realize what I DO have and how lucky I am with the life I have. I have such good friends and lots of people that care about me, family that I love, a good job, fun stuff planned, I can take care of myself and have been since college, so I should feel great about myself. But having a couple heartbreaks in the last couple years really leaves me wondering 'What is wrong with me' and 'Why does this keep happening' so until I can get past that, its gonna be a little while till I get out of this rut.

 

I am so glad that you feel better, even after seeing the ex and waving and still knowing that you are a great person and he can stuff it! haha Hope your weekend is a great one!

[Josalina]

i know what u mean, i have such low days, then the odd better day does help. i wish people were like swans, they mate for life and if their partner dies they live alone still in memory of their love, lol another piece of useless information, i am full of it today ha ha. the point i am trying to make is not to wish i was a swan ha ha and live happily ever after, but that people only had one true love forever, life isnt like that though so i have no idea y i even brought it up lol.

oh dear, well i may go out with my mum tonight, either that or watch a film at home with a box of choccies lol, may see a friend tomorrow so keeping busy.

take care and enjoy your weekend aswell.

[Josalina]

omg! i actually had the bottle to 'bump into' my ex today, i made it look like we just bumped into each other anyway lol.

he was really nice?!

he was smiling away at me, 4 a second i thought i had something on my face! but he told me he has done his back in now, unbelieveable its ironic as the day we finished it he done it in, so now he knows a little of what i have been through, he cant even put his own socks on!!! he he he.

anyway i am amazed he spoke.

i saw him walked past and casually said hiya, he turned round, the wrong way and was looking as he reconised my voice, i siad 'i'm here', lol he turned round and said hello, i asked how he was and he said he was ok, i gathered that was the end of the convo so i said ok well take care and went to walk away thinking he werent interested, he came to me and said you won't believe what has happened, and told me about his back, he asked how mine was and i said i was getting a lot better and told him i was starting the gym next week to strengthen my muscles back for dancing etc, he was smiling away at me while i was talking, very wierd, i left on a high note and we went our seperate ways.

now i am confused he obviously now just wants to be friends, i am confused because i want more, do u think he will think about us now?

i still want him back, what made it worse was he looked great. as i knew i was planning to bump into him i made extra effort with makeup and wore my hair curly how he likes it and nice clothes.

so wierd isn't it now i have no idea where i stand, i hope there is going to be a place 4 me in his heart still.

didn't tell him he was suffering from quarter life crisis as werent the right time or place lol.

hope u r all well?

[Josalina]

i have never felt this low in my life, i am so sad, i cried all night last night, i thought i was getting over him, i text saying i missed him, we have been texting on and off all day today, and now it really is over, he just told me to just except it, there was obviously more leading up to it.

i thought he loved me, all the things he said. i can't stop crying.

i think i am going to have a early night as didn't sleep much last night.

night guys

[Rooster_DAR]

I'm sorry you have to go through this.

 

Although since I moved out from my S/O and decided to do N/C, I have had the urge to text or call her, but then I realize what I'm going to hear is going to be inevitable and another dagger, and there's nothing I can do to change it. That's why we on LS try to encourage N/C for people going through this, because almost every time it's the same outcome.

 

The first thing people that want to do when they get dumped is try to rescue the relationship by seeking validation, and pushing the O/P to realize they screwed up. This is a bad idea, and I think we all learn the hard way that this will only reinforce the other persons decision to bail out.

 

I have accepted this, no matter how much I've tried to rationalize or justify it.

 

roost

[Rooster_DAR]

i have never felt this low in my life, i am so sad, i cried all night last night, i thought i was getting over him, i text saying i missed him, we have been texting on and off all day today, and now it really is over, he just told me to just except it, there was obviously more leading up to it.

i thought he loved me, all the things he said. i can't stop crying.

i think i am going to have a early night as didn't sleep much last night.

night guys

 

If you lived a little closer, I would take you out to a nice dinner and a movie to make you feel better. Sometimes it helps to go out with some good looking stud such as myself to forget about the EX.

 

[swirly27]

i have never felt this low in my life, i am so sad, i cried all night last night, i thought i was getting over him, i text saying i missed him, we have been texting on and off all day today, and now it really is over, he just told me to just except it, there was obviously more leading up to it.

i thought he loved me, all the things he said. i can't stop crying.

i think i am going to have a early night as didn't sleep much last night.

night guys

 

Aww Josaline, I am soooo sorry today was such a bad day! Especially after you were feeling better. But.....this is another step closer to you getting past it, even if it doesn't feel like that now. Remember, this is a roller coaster ride and you had a good up the other day and then missed things and felt better and then a bad day yesterday and today. But, the more you feel these things out and grieve and deal, the closer you will get. Gosh, I know that sounds so cliche-like, but once you are over this, you will look back and be able to see the patterns and phases. So you cry and get it all out and then you will get back to where you were before. It WILL get better.

 

The thing I almost envy is you are going thru running into him and dealing with all that, so you're dealing with different scenarios. You said the other day how you 'bumped' into him, so maybe now you'll know not to do that anymore because it hurt you more than helped you....but now you learned and you know. NC will be best for you right now cause you're hurting still so much, but you experienced it and you know now. I have yet to run into my ex so god only knows when/if I do how I will handle it. All of this happening is part of the process. You're only human and all of this will teach you so much about yourself and what you deserve....which is someone who will not hurt you....WE ALL DO!!

[Josalina]

ha ha thanks roost, lol

i did feel so crap, my eyes hurt where i had cried for so many hours, i had a better night sleep funny enough last night, even after hearing thas it, and he doesn't care anymore, its hurts like crazy, how can u want to marry someone than one day want to move to the other side of the world without them, he doesn't even care.

 

thanks 4 the post 2 swirly, u r sweet.

i know the pain will ease, but i realised i will never truely get over him, for me he was perfect till the day he woke up a changed man, i can't actually believe it. i am so sad, haven't really cried today though, think i am all out of tears ha ha.

i can't believe my situation sometimes, my dad is moving away too in a few days which doesn't really help, but nevermind.

 

went to the doctors for more pain killers today, as where i had my injury, when i get upset it makes it worse, more sore and tense, although u would say u can't c it, i can blooming feel it lol.

the doctor i see it kind, (not in that way) i mean just as a person, he makes me laugh, he felt the tesion in my neck from my injury and said it tension and asked me what was wrong, i get on v. well with him, he knows my family and he said i don't need it.

 

my mum is sweet she took me out for a while today we had lunch and chatted, she must get sick of me going on, but she does listen.

 

one of the last texts i sent when i realised i weren't getting anywhere was 'so is there going to be a future 4 us? i thought i was gonna bloody marry u ha ha. u said u werentgonna leave me. all the things you have said, y did u lie to me? i trusted you. u saidu were always gonna beside me?! no matter what. u asked me if u cud love me 4 the rest of your life, i said i hope u do then u said u don't need to hope i will! i wish i knew u. xxx

 

andrews last text said 'I didn't lie, i did feel like that at the time, and i say how i feel, and i've told u how i feel, take care and please understand joanna, its me not you x' notice only the one kiss we used to always send each other three, this told me that was it.

 

so i sent back 'I am trying to get on with my life ... but the truth is i can't when someone IS YOUR LIFE, then how do you move on without them? It is so sad how people don't work at relationships anymore. well i can't say i didn't try and i can't wait around for something that may never happen. i just want to let you know if anything happens to either of us i love u, i have loved you since the moment i met u, and i will love you till the day i die. ;-( Goodbye xxx'

 

i never recieved a reply so i know he thought about it, but i have to leave him now, i refuse to make a even bigger idiot out of myself, i have told him how i feel, not he is out of my life and i had the last word so i refuse to text or contact him again. although it hurts terribly

 

i cried all night not last night suprisingly but the night before and sent him that simple text of 'Andrew i miss u xxx' i sound so pathetic but he text the next morning as he was asleep when i sent it, i thought he may of been up, but he finished work at 12 and i had sent it at 1.

 

i hope that last text hit home and made him cry as it did me, i was crying as i wrote it, knowing that was it. i wish it had never come to this. i wish i knew what to do with myself.

 

sorry to go on, i just wonder if he will ever realise what he has done and how much i loved him, nevermind i have got to sadly move on now, i am not going to be looking for a relationship in quite awhile, i now know what it is like to have a broken heart.

[Josalina]

when my doctor said i didn't need it, he didn't mean my family lol he meant andrew, just incase it sounded like that lol.

[swirly27]

Hi Josalina, hope today is a better day for you. You know what sucks though, is reading your story and how easy it is for me to KNOW what you have to do....but not being able to apply it to my own story....well I guess I am but my mindset isn't how it should be for my situation, but my mindset is clear when it comes to hearing your story.

 

You have made attempts, bumped into him and came out all honest and clear with attempts to try and tell him how you feel. Plus, you have mentioned how you had the last word. So, its safe to say he KNOWS how you feel. What hurts so bad is he doesn't seem to feel the same way or care. As being on the outside, so I can say this....you deserve someone that would care, we all do. You deserve someone that KNOWS what he wants or wants to include you in his hardships and work thru it WITH you. He doesn't. SOOOO, you need to know that as hard as it will be and as sad and grueling, your best bet is to move on....and man that sucks. We are all here talking about this person we miss that we think is so perfect, but I think most of it is us missing 'what could have been', cause we can't miss the bad stuff. The best thing you can do is now stick to the NC because its what YOU need and it will be best for YOU....not because it might get him back. If there is ever a chance though, it will be when he works himself out....with NC. Driving by his house might not be good either cause one, it upsets you and gets you thinking, and two, he may see you doing this. So maybe take another route home.

 

I have to take some of my own advice though cause although I have stuck to NC for 6 weeks now, I still HOPE it'll bring him back to me. I am also using this time to try and heal and do things for me and get over this, but that hope is there and I am hoping with some more time, that will just fade away. Keep our fingers crossed. So now.....you need to do something special for yourself this week or weekend. Maybe a spa day!! They are always a good thing. Anything to keep us busy and feel good about ourselves. Thats why I am excited about these baths. It'll be something new to try, relaxing, cleansing and will keep me occupied too. Chat later!

[Josalina]

thanks swirly, i know u r right, do u not think it is a good idea to go home near his house? i thought maybe if he sees me... no u r right even if he sees me he probably won't feel any different, i need him 2 wonder where i am, thats if he will lol.

 

i had treatment today accupunture again, it really hurt this time and the physio thought she had left a needle in, i am not good with needles as it is but trying to speed up recover time, only 4 more sessions of that left now roughly, so thats good.

i am going to give a friend a call later to c what she is doing at the end of the week, i am starting the gym tomorrow, to strengthen my back and neck from the injury so that will be fun, a step forward to getting better too.

 

booked another neck, beck and scalp massage at a lovely health salon again as that made me feel better and helped with the injury so going to do that once a week, got my pilates class thurs eve so trying to keep busy, like you said.

 

it is so hard, i wish i could make it better for all of us.

[swirly27]

thanks swirly, i know u r right, do u not think it is a good idea to go home near his house? i thought maybe if he sees me... no u r right even if he sees me he probably won't feel any different, i need him 2 wonder where i am, thats if he will lol.

 

i had treatment today accupunture again, it really hurt this time and the physio thought she had left a needle in, i am not good with needles as it is but trying to speed up recover time, only 4 more sessions of that left now roughly, so thats good.

i am going to give a friend a call later to c what she is doing at the end of the week, i am starting the gym tomorrow, to strengthen my back and neck from the injury so that will be fun, a step forward to getting better too.

 

booked another neck, beck and scalp massage at a lovely health salon again as that made me feel better and helped with the injury so going to do that once a week, got my pilates class thurs eve so trying to keep busy, like you said.

 

it is so hard, i wish i could make it better for all of us.

 

See, thats whats hard. When we do things on purpose to hope to get a reaction out of the ex, then thats when we have to know we are not healed yet and if it ends up hurting you as well, then I would steer clear of going past his house....only to benefit you. Heck, one day when you are over this, you may drive by 10 times a day and not care at all what he thinks or what he is doing....but right now, you do care, and its only hurting you more, so I would go home a different way.

 

I hope your exercising and therapy keeps going good, except for the needle part. yuck! But, I hope it all makes you feel better. I should probably join the gym again but right now it would be a waste of money. I have an exercise machine at home but I don't like it right now. I try to go for walks at night with my one friend, but that isn't consistent. Oh well, we'll see. I know exercise would make me feel better and give me something else to do, but if I know it will be wasting money right now, then I don't want to do that. We'll see.

 

I hoppe to schedule a spa day here soon too, but I am trying to be cautious with money. I am trying to start christmas shopping and saving up money for a trip I am taking over Halloween with my mom, plus paying her the half of the inn we are staying at, so I am trying to be careful. I do shop here and there for myself and of course talking to a psychic every now and then costs money too. haha

 

How are you feeling today, better? This is just going to be a time process of ups and downs and goods and bads and the day that we can just completely let go of our exes, I will be so happy for us. You sound like me in that you still have a hope, even if your mind says its over or he says it too. When that hope goes away, things will be so much better.

[Guest]

hi its me josalina, i can't log in as i am on a different computer at my local libary as my computer has broken, it is in repairs, i don't know when i will get it back so just letting you know, i am hoping by next week, i will be online as soon as it is done, have a good weekend and take care, p.s. i have sent you an email, as added u to my msn, so u will know when i am online again.

speak soon

joanna

[Josalina]

hey all my computer is back, i have had one hell of a week.

my ex hasn't contacted, as i haven't him but i suddenly realised how long is this going to go on for before he starts to miss me? we have had no contact for 2 weeks and split 4 nearly a month, do u think by the time he realises he wants me back it will be so long b4 we last spoke he won't tell me bcos it has been so long? do u know what i mean or am i just awaiting false hope?

[swirly27]

hey all my computer is back, i have had one hell of a week.

my ex hasn't contacted, as i haven't him but i suddenly realised how long is this going to go on for before he starts to miss me? we have had no contact for 2 weeks and split 4 nearly a month, do u think by the time he realises he wants me back it will be so long b4 we last spoke he won't tell me bcos it has been so long? do u know what i mean or am i just awaiting false hope?

 

Glad to see you're back Josalina!! Unfortunately, the fact that you are counting weeks and days (as I am still too lol) means it is a false hope on your part. The ONLY way you would want to talk to him is when he gets his head together, figures some stuff out and realizes stuff and that takes awhile. If he comes to the realization that he wants to talk to you, it won't matter how long its been, if he wants to do it bad enough, he will. But because you still care so much, you worry he won't do it....I know cause I wonder that too......but it doesn't matter. We have to look at this as not 'waiting' but just moving on. Its over - I tell myself that every day - and its been almost 2 months since my breakup. Glad to hear you haven't contacted him either though!!

[Josalina]

hiya swirly great to be back, thanks for your reply, i know it is over, u r right i keep telling myself that, but somehow ask myself y after lol, i still can't get my head around it, he loved me with all his heart, then now he can't beare to talk to me?! life is so wierd.

i had quite a good day today though, went shopping brought my mum a few things for her bday ready for next month and treated myself so that was nice, got a few pretty tops and some classy earrings and some new makeup so i feel much more loved by me ha ha. going to focus on christmas next, i have already done some.

how was your day?

i wish i could get andrew out my head, i keep dreaming about him at night, last night i dreamt we were looking around houses to buy, the night before i was shopping with him, and i also dreamt we went to a party, the night before that we went for a country walk, all things we done togeter, just silly every day things, i guess its coz my mind can't get over not seeing him so i dream instead lol its doing my head in.

i hope you are having a nice weekend?

i am not up to much tomorrow yet, so going to catch up on paper work i think and then monday night i am seeing one of my best friends who has just recently had a baby, he is lovely, his 6 weeks old now, and i try to see them as much as poss as she had a c section because she had a bad pregnacy so she is still sore so i help her out as much as poss.

ok well not much news about mr x as still not going to contact him so still keeping busy.

did u get my msn swirly? if not i will send u an e-mail and u can add me that way 2.

take care.

[Josalina]

i am having a really low day today, i have a lot on my mind to deal with, yet mr x seems to still be in there aswell, i am lost, he has really played with my head, yet i still cant stop thinking about him, i miss him, i would do anything to go back to how we used to be, it amazes me how i thought it rusted him and yet when it came down to it he didn't live up to any of what he said.

he said he felt it at the time and he says how he feels, that just proves he don't anymore, yet i still can't think what happened.

i go over and over conversations looking for hints or something i may of missed, i question eveerything i said and wheter it was right.

i wanted to end up with him and before he started his new job he wanted the same. i fell a mess, i wish he could c what he is doing, yet to get over him i find myself imagining horrible situations like all the bad memories and what wud happen if he is now seeing sum1 else or even worse another ex?

i hate him for doing this to me yet i love him still and the way it used to be, we were everything.

what makes someone change?

the way he doen't contact makes me feel like i was the problem, yet i don't know what i done wrong?

[swirly27]

Aww Josaline, I am sorry today is a low day. But try and re-read your post and make believe that I said all those words and what would you say to me??? First off, there is usually no ONE person who does everything wrong......even if someone cheated and the other person stayed with them anyway, its usually the way TWO people interact, react to one another and try and communicate and integrate. So thinking in your head that you did one thing here or one thing there that could have made a difference, its not true. Look at people who are truly in love and truly committed to being together....they go thru TONS of tough times, saying mean things, fights, sometimes worse and they still stick thru it. If you did some little thing that would make this ex of yours all of a sudden not want to be with you, then all the good stuff he said before was BULL! It probably 'sounded' nice coming out of his mouth and he probably wanted to feel that way, but when it came time to show it, where is he??? Just like my ex Josa, I know he liked me and he said all these wonderful things to me and about me but when he had to be held accountable for his behavior, he vanished!! Do you really want someone that is so indecisive with such important feelings like your ex was for you? I bet not, but until you are over him, it will hurt like hell, all the memories and good times. Thats the worst part. But even though I am still missing my ex, it does get a little easier with time and then you'll soon realize you are tired of thinking about it....thats where the NC helps cause if you have NC you have nothing 'new' to analyze or think about.

 

Hope things look up for you today. I stayed home from work because I think I am coming down with a cold. So, its soup and covers on the couch for me. Just look at today as a down day and focus on staying busy tonight and then tomorrow is a new day!

[Josalina]

i know your right matie lol, i hate feeling like this, i am now actually avioding him and where he will be now altogether.

 

i just rung my girlfriend to arrange a time for tonight to c her as we arranged a girls night in. but now her bloke is gonna b there, although i like him, he just reminds me of my ex as they were mates and with all couples going over now becos her partner has invited them and just me i am gonna feel a bit of a gooseberry but nevermind, i shall go round with the motif to have a laugh in mind just get a lil sad a lonely sometimes, lol listen to me, i have been invited out and i am upset about it, i shouldn't moan, sorry.

 

so with a more positive note i am getting my hair done at 4.30, so only got an hour or so to wait, i am going to keep it long but have more layers in so it sits better when curly lol and has body when straight.

 

hope u have a good eve, sorry to hear u are feeling a little poorly, hope u feel better soon.

[swirly27]

Hey Josalina, hope you are feeling better today. How did your night go last night at your friend's house where all the couples would be? Did you have a good time? I hope so!!

 

How did your hair turn out? Doing stuff like that always makes us feel good. I am going to ask my girlfriend if she'll trim my hair here soon cause it needs it. I also noticed when I am feeling down, I'll tend to want to dress down and I try and nip that in the butt and instead make myself look cute as much as possible. If we feel like we look cute then we usually feel better too, so thats why hair and makeup and all that fun girl stuff can really be helpful through a breakup.

 

I also started to read "Men Are From Mars, Women Are From Venus". I know this is a classic, but I hadn't read it yet. Looks like it'll be a good one to read, have you read alot of things yet? Its always helpful and can help us learn from things and for the future as well.

 

Well I am heading out of work now so hope your day is going good!

[Josalina]

i heard of that book, haven't read it yet a friend said she would lend it to me.

 

last night was wierd, i didn't feel comfortable and i am generally a very confident person, my best mate has gone to the gym with another girl to c this gym guy i spoke about, iwish i hadn't said anything. apparently her friend thought he was so good looking she went and chatted him up! i was a bit suprised as her mate is with sum1 2, apparently he weren't interested according to my bestf as he walked off, so then my bestf decided to meantion my name and why i had to go to gym to recover an accident etc out loud for him to hear!!! he looked at her but apparently glanced back down to his log. i could of died when i heard all this, and i was quit annoyed to think they wud interfer, well goes to show u can't trust even a best mate hey lol.

they was drinking from a few girls and a few catty comments made during the evening which upset me as i am quite sensitive, they were kinda taking the pee saying oh theres a dancer who can't currently dance! which kinda hurt as recovering from a nasty injury isn't easy and although i am hoping to get back into it asap i didn't go round for things like that and comments about not being able to drink as i am on pain relieve so i would be no fun to go out with, the thing is i never have really drunk even b4 the injury and they didn't realise that bcos i don't need to drink to have a good time.

there was a few other comments from women but i won't bore u with them.

 

i saw my gym trainer today, he was still v. kind to me and nothing was said, so i wonder if anything actually happened at all.

 

it was so embarrassing as i have low blood pressure but when ever i c him my pulse on the machines rocket, so i was trying not to make it obvious, as i'm not even sure i like him so i was so embarrassed and couldn't understand it ha ha ha, he things it could of been bcos i haven't been able to work out properly cos of my injury 4 awhile but when he went out my pulse lowered from 161 back to 119 lol then he came back 8 mins later it went to 182 in under 30 secs ha ha, lucky he didn't c that though lol ha ha ha:laugh: i could of died.

 

my hair looks great i got a bit of a new style going on, more layers and sweeping fringe, which looks good, even gym guy noticed and said it looked nice lol.

i don't even know if he is interested and i'm not looking for a relationship at the mo as still miss ex but its nice to have a fit bloke to chat to lol.

 

my mum saw my ex yesterday, she said he looked so miserable, he hadn't even done his hair as he was wearing a cap and mum said his face was so sad, he waved and half smiled to mum and she smiled back at him, dunno if she waved but she wanted to make it know she wasn't in a mood with him so if he did contact he would she have mum being poliet to him lol.

she said if i had saw him in the street i wouldn't have looked twice at him, but he did start not doing his hair till evening when he went to work the last few weeks being with me, so he isn't making an effort with his apperence out at all, except when working, well i guess.

 

how r u now? ur cold gone?

hope u feel better

[swirly27]

Aww Josa, I am sorry you didn't have the best time at your friend's house the other night. Who are these girls that are talking about you like that? Friends? I would have smacked them! haha Better to ignore them because mean people like that don't deserve any attention. (but I still would have LIKED to smack them).

 

I am glad you like your hair and feel good about that. That is always something nice! I still need to get a trim. Oh boy, haha, tell your friends not to try and play matchmaker right now with you and this gym guy. That won't help anything right now. You making a new friend with a good looking guy is helpful enough. But he seems to enjoy being your friend and trainer so that is good. Like you said, you are not looking for anything anyway.

 

Try not to dwell too much when you hear about anyone who has seen your ex, because it will eat you up and consume you and you'll get more emotionally invested and worried about him. I remember a couple weeks after i broke it off with my ex, my friend told me how he seemed down and was hanging out at home with his family (which is something that was very OUT of the ordinary) and it kept me wondering about him and worried that he was having a hard time in life and really I wish I wouldn't have heard that because unless he is knocking on my door or calling me, I don't want to be worried about him....I need to be worried about me. I know your mum wasn't trying to make it worse, but its better when we don't hear about them.....unless they themselves are trying to reach us. It just makes it harder.

 

GOOD LUCK with your decision about texting him back. I hope you wait the 24hrs and decide what to do tomorrow. If you do text him back, keep it short, positive and light and make it like you are doing great.....no help from him!

[Josalina]

the girls weren't really friends just know them from friends, they r not that nice people, so i stayed with a few of my girlfriends and the lads, i find i usually get on better with men as i dont like the cattyness u get with women.

i left early in the end.

 

it is so cold here, can tell winters coming, its bitterly cold.

a friend of mine got her drink spiked at a club sat night, it was terrible, she was telling me mon night, poor girl, some indian bloke spiked it coz he couldn't get her attention, i couldn't believe it!

just goes to show though men don't like to b ignored.

 

i am not doing much today, its a bit to cold to go out, just dropped my sis off to college, got some paperwork to do at home then picking claire louise up and going pilates this eve. so bit of a slower day today and i am on strick orders from specialist to rest so trying to relax more.

[swirly27]

Where exactly do you live Josaline, just in general? It is fall weather here in the US and I love it, its my favorite season.

 

Well that sucks about the catty girls but you're right, us girls can be biatches haha, I seem to get along well with guys too....but I have alot of girlfriends too, so its a good mix. Glad you had a semi good night then and at least you got out and socialized!

 

Enjoy your relaxing day today and just try to be relaxed, especially after hearing from him last night via text. I responded to your other thread about that though. But if your specialist is telling you to rest, that is good then that you are.