The Other Half

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Hi.

 

Just curious.....

Has anyone met the BS ??

 

Me & MM work for the same company. & so does the W. thereby i am exposed to them two everysingle day.....are they lovey dovey? NO.

i can help by compare how he is w/ me... yes, i have spkn to her.. actually she hated me before she even spoken to me... the only time we spoke was when the A was discovered. however she has no knowledge just the extent of the A as i belv its not my place to put salt to the wound - so to speak....

Do i regret the A? No, what has occured during the A helped me to be the person i am now....& basically i thank MM for that, if it wasnt for him i would not have loved & most importantly i got hurt... thus now i know what i dont want....& hopefully there is a S guy out there that can make my heart beat as fast as MM made it beat with just one look.

 

I told MM that i wasnt going to hold back if i start to develop any feelings for another guy... so far MM is liking that becoz he know i dont fall easy...& assumed he still has time... Right now we are on NC [ no my choice].. But am thankful for the space... everyday i am finally slowly remving what ever damaged he has caused in my heart.. all though it is surely to leave a scar....

& prepared to tell MM that i have let him go... & that he had his chance & he blew it...personally i gave him till my bday to make everything right if he wants me... it was not discussed... it was a date i placed for myself...that date is in a month..... the day of my birth i will start new... & finally learnt from the numerous scars he gave me. THAT DATE I WILL SET HIM FREE..!

i know i should do it NOW NOW... but i need to prepare myself...stupid aye?

 

My friends say that he is coward that doesnt deserve any attention for the W or myself... a part of me know that its true....currently i am tryin to keep busy & going to school/work & going out on the weekends.... doing i never dreamed on doing while i was w/ MM... becaused he loved my good girl status....=)