9dee9 Posted October 18, 2006 Share Posted October 18, 2006 Im not sure whats going on with me, but whatever it is i dont feel very good about it and I know it has to stop. About 5 years ago I was diagnosed with depression/anxiety disorder. I was on meds for awhile but they did not work for me so i stopped taking them. Well over the last 6 months or so the panic attacks have come back and needless to say I have been feeling pretty low. But this time around before the low comes these rages have been happening and they are starting to scare me. For the past 2 days I have sent my kids to school feeling pretty bad....something will set me off and all hell breaks loose, I scream like a mad women say horrible things to them and then they leave and i sit and cry. I dont want to do this to them, last night they came home and I apologised for the way i acted and made sure they know i love them, but then i did it again this morning. I am on a waiting list for a panic group, but theres more then just panic happening here. I dont like how im set off so easy the best way i can describe it is raging. Has anyone else ever felt this way. Link to post Share on other sites
amaysngrace Posted October 18, 2006 Share Posted October 18, 2006 I think everyone can get upset at their children. They try our patience. You're certainly not alone there. The most important thing is you recognize your weakness and know you need to improve on it. Try to take a time out for yourself before you go off on them. If you feel you're about to lose it, remove yourself and go count to ten. Breathe deep. Think happy thoughts. Whatever. As long as you are able to break the cycle you find yourself in. Try not to beat yourself up over it. Nobody's perfect and when it comes to parenting, all we do is the best that we can. And if we realize we can do better, we go for it. As long as they know you love them, and you're trying to do better, they will appreciate your love and your honesty. And will most likely grow into loving, honest adults as well. Link to post Share on other sites
FELIZE Posted October 18, 2006 Share Posted October 18, 2006 [9dee9 quote:] "I was on meds for awhile but they did not work for me so i stopped taking them." Well 9dee, that could be an issue there. Did you consult with your Physician first before stopping your meds? You should never just "stop" taking the meds. If anything, it sounds like your MD should have increased the dosage. You should Re-consider this. Also: Try enrolling in some Parenting Classes hopefully this can help and create a support group. Best of Luck.... Link to post Share on other sites
Guest Posted October 18, 2006 Share Posted October 18, 2006 Well thank you for your replies, some time has passed and im feeling kinda better. About the meds no i didnt consult with my doctor i just gave up (story of my life). I just feel that sometimes i do so good, but then it just all comes crashing down again, and each time a bit harder. I guess im glad that i recognize the problem, and want to make it better but you can only say sorry so many times berfore it means nothing. I grew up with a mother who was very mean to me at times, she would say horrible things to me and make me wish i had never been born, and i have carried all these feelings into my adult years and i swore if i ever i had children i would never treat them that way. I would build there self-esteem and self confiedence not rip it apart. I would show them unconditional love. I really hope i can stop this cycle. Link to post Share on other sites
FELIZE Posted October 19, 2006 Share Posted October 19, 2006 Well thank you for your replies, some time has passed and im feeling kinda better. About the meds no i didnt consult with my doctor i just gave up (story of my life). I just feel that sometimes i do so good, but then it just all comes crashing down again, and each time a bit harder. I guess im glad that i recognize the problem, and want to make it better but you can only say sorry so many times berfore it means nothing. I grew up with a mother who was very mean to me at times, she would say horrible things to me and make me wish i had never been born, and i have carried all these feelings into my adult years and i swore if i ever i had children i would never treat them that way. I would build there self-esteem and self confiedence not rip it apart. I would show them unconditional love. I really hope i can stop this cycle. Glad to know you're feeling better! Link to post Share on other sites
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