Second Chances??

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But before that i was going through a tough time i had found out about my family conditions. I was very stressed out and she was the only person that could make me feel better. I did get clingy to her. Then she met this guy over online that really pissed me off, she met up with him with her friends and i told her not to see him because if i did that you would be crying.

 

She said she would but then she started it doing it even more. So one day i told her it makes me feel jealous so she said she needed a break from me. I tried talking her out of it. It didn't work and she told me if i asked her out in person everything would be fine.

 

But no she kept changing her mind. At this time i found out my dad had cancer. I was just broken up about everything going in my life so i contacted my "I need space gf". So I Told her i needed her at this time. I was very hurt for everything going on. Everything was fine we weren't together but we were talking like friends.

 

She goes to college she changes completely. From i want to be you to "I don't feel the same with you crap, I don't love you as much as u love me, or i don't feel the spark.

 

So we broke up three weeks ago she kept telling me i should date around. We broke because she is in college now and wants to be single. Tells me that I should wait for her. But after a month passed from the "I need a break phase" she told me that she wanted me to date around while she got used to this life style at college. But as time passed i saw her growing apart from me.

 

Then we broke up because i had enough of the B.S. I told her everything i had in my heart lol kinda felt good nothing like being strapped like a dog for two months. But regardless i do love her and i have dated her for 10 months. After we broke up i went on dates. I wasn't happy but still i was pissed as hell. Now my question is why does she want to be friends with me since she told me she doesn't love me anymore other then a friend. I mean i do understand i got clingy

 

But see's a future with me down the road.....So we talk everyday almost for like 20 mins sometimes an hour and she calls me at like 4 am in the morning. I never pick up though and i usually call her two days later ask why she called lol she acts like it was a normal call. I am giving that BS space she asked for without any real reason. She calls me so late on the weekends......i'm usually out with my gf's.

 

She confess to my older brother that she doesn't want to lose me. Because she was giving all her bold statements to my brother. He told her if she wanted to lose him just continue what she was doing. She then changed her statement and said what should i do to not lose him. After that me and her stated talking like normal.

 

So i'm wondering since she told me she doesn't love me anymore doesn't have the feelings for me. I have chased her for two months? Does she still have feelings for me? She still has fun with me though. She still isn't dating anyone but when i mention one of my gf's that i'm hanging around with a lot she gets a lil wierd and gets a lil quite.

 

I mean i have never cheated on her but she broke up with me because i couldn't make her happy(dad with cancer, should i be happy) Still what road should i pursue? I mean shes slowly working back in to my life and i am to. I still know that she cares about me deeply and is broken up. But I don't know which plan i should take. No CONTACT is out of the way. When i talk to her i never show that i am hurt or weak.

 

I have gained a lot of confidence i have seen my mistakes but i am just wondering. I mean i talk to her everyday if i don't call she calls me. So we r now on the even lvl and i kinda see us going back. So how long should i wait? She has made it obivious that she doesn't want a bf this time in her life though. But treats me like her bf on somedays. So what road should i take to get her back? No contact or just be friends crap