Do I love him or feel sorry for him

[love or empathy]

Hello to anyone that can relate. I recently broke up with my boyfriend, and doubting the reasons why? When we met it was a spirited relationship, we both fell head over heals. With in months we were plannning a future, the moving out, marriage, the whole thing. Once again, I got swept up in the moment, over looking the obvious differences between us.

 

Let me elaborate- religion, lifestyles, family background, well basically a little wrong side of the tracks sydrome. When we met I was transitioning back from a career change, and it was almost like he consume me into a amazing world. A world that made me feel like I was living my life again.

 

I came from a strong, loving family, that provided me all the right morals and tools for life. So I started to feel ashame of myself, for feeling that this man wouldn't either meet my long term expectations, or that parents would think he was not the right man for me. I am not sure what exactly it is that I love about him, I feel I do, even though he does not treat me at all how i imagined the man I would marry would.

 

He is so convinced that I am the woman of his dreams, and he does love me so. I think its the way that he shows it? I felt I showed him eighty different ways I would go up and beyond for him, he felt my love. I was being taken for granted as though I was some trophy. Basically is he was self-centered and rather lazy when it came to our relationship, I believe he felt so happy, that he slowly stop putting effort into making me feel the same.

 

I hate hurting anyone, breaking his heart crushes me. He was going to propose, I panicked and reality hit- is this the right man? Am I settling? I mean here is someone who I know loves me more than anything in the world, but to be candid, I don't know if he can offer me the world that i deserve? the first couple of weeks i felt confident in my decision. than i faltered, maybe out of loniness or love? Or I knew what he was going through, I don't want to play with his heart! Any advice