BubbleBear81 Posted November 5, 2006 Share Posted November 5, 2006 Hey everyone- I don't reall yknow what to say or where to start. I'm a surviver of abuse. All of the above i might say, for 25 yrs. My father was like that in all ways, and find the relationships i chose, repeat it some way. If only to be enticed and then rejected when i make myself vulnerable. I meet ones who lead me on, thinking ( and even saying )they really want me, but really only just like how i look and then get really distant and rude when confronted, and won't accept their part in being a first class liar. I'm just really hurt about never being able to find a good guy. I have the unacanny ablity to attract only the agressive, and sick ones off the street. Who yell things at you from a moving vehicle, or stare at your assets or patronzie you by sweet talk. Nice ones won't speak to me. I really dont know why,m but i suspect it may be because of im not very approachable because of my past. We all know unhealthy people can sense that and try to take advantege of it. I'm really hurt and mad about being seen constantly as someone they know well enough to sleep with me, but not any more, and im sick of them not making an effort to know me. Im so sick of them claiming to be "my friend" onyl to betry me and blame me for it. But mostly im hurt by never being allowed to have boundries (growing-up) and thinking each time i did it was something wrong with me, so now i dont even know how to have any of them. Why am i afriad to lose those who abuse me. Why do I have such an attatch to them? Im tired of making the mistake of selecting and hoping to be with the wrong types of guys who are just out to take advantege of my kindness and the dream i share about finding a good one. Link to post Share on other sites
tinktronik Posted November 21, 2006 Share Posted November 21, 2006 Stay out of a relationship for a good long while. Get to a counselor and try to work out some of your problems , because now they are no one elses problems , only yours . Don't try to make anyone else own up to anything . just take steps to heal yourself.good luck. Link to post Share on other sites
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