A Poem

[t1n0m3n]

I have to let someone see this before I send it to her.

Please tell me what you think. It is a letter that I wrote my ex today after seeing her last night. I didn't like the way it sounded so I turned it into a poem instead. There is a lot of background information left out, and you might not get some of the references. I did not intend for any of it to rhyme, but I amazingly enough, the first stanza rhymes for some reason.

 

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I told you the last time that we were together

I will always love you

This will always be true

I gave my love to you the moment that we met

This is something that I can never get back from you

 

When I saw you I thought something was wrong

You looked terrible

Sick

I was just so happy to see you again

I should have not invited myself

You obviously did not feel well

I could not think of a good way to say good bye

 

he comes home

You become animated

I am confused

body language, lethargy, and recoils from my touch

unconsciously, don't want me to be there

awkward and hurt

I decided to take what I could get

not let my hurt show

I enjoyed talking to you

I did enjoy watching you try to mother him

I thought it was adorable

I also realized that you do really like him

contrary to what I was led to believe

 

shower

you looked radiant

you felt so much better

 

I don't want your sympathy

I don't want you to mother me

All I have ever wanted

you have never given

That hurts

Seeing you like I did

I had the overwhelming desire to hold you

let you sleep in my arms

I cant emotionally take seeing you like this

I feel like my heart is tearing

my sanity

is it best we stop seeing each other

I feel stupid

I just cant get over you

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[tearful_soul22]

This is a nice poem and truly indicative of your own personal feelings. I enjoyed reading it. Thanks a lot for sharing. Take care and my best to you!

[t1n0m3n]

thanks for the input. I am getting cold feet about sending it now. I REALLY don't want to hurt her, and I don't know if she can take this poem right now.

We agreed to take it slow and see where it leads (our previous encounter was a whirlwind relationship), but every time I see her I just want to hold her in my arms... Which I don't know if it is appropriate as this point and time. She knows that I love her, but I just don't get her body language sometimes. I think maybe I come on too strong to her.

[t1n0m3n]

I am thinking of just removing the 3rd stanza. What do you think?

[romantic157]

Stop right now, your setting yourself up for failure. If you want her back you need to stop being so caring, so nice. It doesn’t mean you have to stop it only means you stop showing it. If you have told her already how you feel then stop chasing her. I have beg, I have wrote poems, the more I pushed the more she pulled back and before long she turned her love against me. Relax and start living you life, I know it’s hard but it’s the only way to maybe get your love back. You need to give them a chance to miss you. If you continue you’re going to become a doormat. There is nothing you can do to get her to come back and any attempt to make her feel bad for you will only make you look weak which is not very attractive. Be nice but busy; let her wonder why you’re not chasing her. At some point she will miss you, it may not be enough for her to come back but it’s the best you can due for now. If she starts showing you she wants to work things out go slow very slow and don’t push. Good luck

[t1n0m3n]

thanks romantic. Very good advice. I have just talked to her, and she said that she wants to get to know me and be friends first. She is scared of hurting me again, and she wants to do it right this time. I told her that it is just hard for me to make decisions based on my heart vs. my head. This is my second chance after 12 years, and I am so scared of screwing it up.

 

This might seem like a strange question... But should I consider dating around? I have not dated in 10 or so years because it just felt to me like I was wasting my time. I my thought is that maybe I need to learn how to talk and be flirty/friendly toward a woman in a one on one setting. Get more comfortable with small talk so to speak.

 

Good idea/Bad idea?