starfish86 Posted November 20, 2006 Share Posted November 20, 2006 i've been with this guy for nearly 3 months. when i first met him i had quite a thing for him, i thought he was cute and his personality just kinda sparkled, i rarely get crushes on anyone but i did on him. so we got to know eachother quite well and you could basically just feel the click in the air- i know it sounds like a crappy love cliche but it actually was like that. he's my best friend ever, and on top of that he's a fantastic boyfriend, who always makes me feel special. the only thing is, being friends with him seemed to kind of take away from that longing pining crush feeling. i don't really get it when i'm with him. having said that, he is my first boyfriend, and with anyone i've ever liked before, well, they weren't even talking to me basically. it was almost like having a celebrity crush, maybe the inaccessibility is what made them so appealing. ever since i met this guy, and i'm not kidding, he's been on my brain. sometimes in a lovey-daydreamy kind of way, sometimes in a sexual kind of way, sometimes just in an "i can't wait to tell him this" kinda way. it's just that, whenever i've liked anyone before, i'd get that heart pounding butterfly feeling when i saw them. i don't get that with him, i just feel comfortable. i will sometimes find myself looking at other guys and comparing them to him, and they don't really compare anymore. before i had a relationship i always associated it with that crazy turning-of the stomach feeling... i broke up with him a month ago over this, not because i wanted to, but because i thought if this wasn't a real relationship, it wasn't fair on him, and i didn't want to hurt him more later on. i ended up getting back with him 3 days later cuz i couldn't stand being away from him. i think all i want is for someone to tell me this is a normal relationship, and that it's ok. i wanna be with him, i love spending time with him, i enjoy the making out etc, well it's slightly less "mechanical" of a feeling with him than it has been with other guys. i want someone to tell me this is no big deal basically! Link to post Share on other sites
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