ThatAin'tRight Posted December 14, 2006 Share Posted December 14, 2006 A few days ago, my ex called and we were making small talk about what we did the previous weekends. She didn't do much. I had a female friend in from out of town and I took her out and about in the big city. My ex was jealous and said she felt cheated because we never did any of those things. (The truth is, when we were together, we didn't have much time at all for that stuff.) After that she asked where I slept and where she slept, when I told her I slept on the couch, she didn't believe me and cut the conversation short. She called me last night and apologized for reacting the way she did, she said it was immature and that she was letting the pressures of work get to her. I told her that it was ok, I might have reacted the same way and accepted her apology. I then said that we need to stop this, whatever it is becuase we both need to move on with our lives and that we can't if we keep in communication and continue to inadvertantly hurt each other. She agreed. (Backstory: She broke up with me. I guilted her into a second chance, that didn't work. Earlier this month, she called crying saying that she thinks she made a mistake breaking up with me. It hurt because I wanted to believe her.) Anyway, back to last night. After she agreed with me, she started telling me how she's going to take more time to enjoy her life, one of the things that I told her she needed to do months and months ago. I told her good for her and that I hope it helps her get back to herself. I feel awful now, like we just broke up again. I do really love her and care for her. I am stuck now thinking that she was trying to tell me she is going to make changes in her life for the better and I ignored them. EVERYONE here knows exactly how I feel. What I hate about this is the second guessing of myself and what I really want. I do want her back, but I don't exactly know how to go about it. I am going to do the NC thing again for me so I can get my head straight. I just needed to vent. Thanks for reading this. Any input or advice would be appreciated, as today I feel like I have hit an all time low. Link to post Share on other sites
princessa Posted January 3, 2007 Share Posted January 3, 2007 Well since i'm reading your thread and you seem an awful lot like my ex... or is it me who seems like your ex.... any updates with that?? It has been half a month after all.. how is the NC going? Link to post Share on other sites
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