what would u do?

[Guest]

There is a woman I have been in love with forever, and our situation is kinda weird and confusing because basically she knows what I am doing and have done since we broke up [because I freely give her access and information] but she refuses to do the same with me. This situation is so one-sided that it think that maybe it has become a sort of game for to play, and I know that later down the road she will hate herself for doing so. Basically this woman [yes woman - she is 39] and i were in a long relationship and u can say we officially broke up in June.

 

She has never told me why she did this but I believe it is because of how I treated her, and that that caused her to lose any love she had for me, and that because of that and other things she avoids me and does not want me in her life. However, I know that she still takes an interest in what I am doing and often goes on the same wb sites that I do. Friends have told me that she is seeing someone else and has done so for a while. When we were together she often told me about things at work and men that she knew, and I never got jealous or thought she would cheat on me. I know for a fact that even though she says she loves her freedom that she does not go long periods between having a man in her life.

 

I do know that she has no problem meeting men and that she is confident and has choosen a man and how doesn't matter. She met me off the Internet, once dated someone that did some work around the house [daughter told me about that one - lol], she has done the club thing, school, and she is probably dating someone she met at work. There is no certain 'look' she goes after, its mainly someone that shows interest that gets her, and that is a drag because she tosses her value so easily on the floor that way. I also don't mind saying, its not an ego thing, that I am the best man she will ever have in her life and she knows i say that because of all the right reasons [connection]. Now, she knows I want her back in her life and that I have done tons of work, and being tolerant an patient.

 

She knows ther is no way I can contact her unless she offers up information, and I have asked her for that a few times, and I will not ask again. So, for about 3 months we have played a little chasing game, and it has actually helped me heal and get to a play where I no longer am concerned if she will never be in my life. She knows now that I am in that 'place' in my mind and that we are truly at crossroads - where the future is at hand. My question is this: if u were this woman, and know all these things and were doing what she was - how would u feel about yourself? would these actions be something that you would be concerned about? and would u reach out now or just let things die?

 

 

 

then 3 weeks later she hooked up with another guy she has known from work... yeah, that sent me bouncin off the wall when i heard about it. She wanted to stay friends the entire time, saying that she still cared for me but didn't love me anymore but wanted to do this to see just truly how much she felt for me and if were meant to be, bahh whatever, i was emotionally distraught at the time and still loved her so neglectingly i agreed and waited for her because i loved this girl more than anything.