Guest Posted December 22, 2006 Share Posted December 22, 2006 for over 5 months, a woman i love and i have bounced back and forth sharing thoughts and healing at the same time. it has been something we both needed and unexpected and great and i really never thought it would happen this way but u take what u can get. last night the bubble finally burst for me and i was able to express in here and enotalone all the things i feel about her and the things i now knew regarding her feelings and emotions and i told her that all are hard work had finally paid off and that what that means is that i place her and what she wants above everything else. and i told her she is welcome to get on with her life and that i want her to be happy and know that doing this is no longer something that hurts me or something i will regret. and i can do this now because i truly understand the big picture, and that has removed all the nasty past, and expectations and i am now a blank slate. and last night we were both incredibly happy and feel such a deep connection even though i know it is truly not fully acknowledged in person just a ghost like belief that we are in the same place connecting and believing where others would never. so, this is the truth - what i know, i am not coming here now to reach for her to be together - i have released that and i am only doing what i believe i need to finish things in my mind. i have promised and expressed that 2007 will be different, no repeat of 06, and what that means, is i am going to do things that make me better, i am going to be with someone that wants to be with me. she knows that would be her if i could have my wish but i know that is not a reality - my reality is based now on a foundation i can actually walk on. my truth is just this - we both made the passage to where this kind of communication is not needed and we both control our own destiny and wish each other the best. i can't wait for 2007 and the future looks great - thanks to her and i working as hard as we did. Link to post Share on other sites
Guest Posted December 23, 2006 Share Posted December 23, 2006 Hey, you seem to be in pain/contemplation. Deep growth can come of this. Consider it digging for treasure....enlightenment. I am curious though, do you actually talk to this person or are you relying on esp? Not the most effective communication route. Conveying deep emotions, angst and such in a forum is liberating, but if you are sincere you should actually communicate these things to who it is you feel so much for. Nothing bad could come from being real. I am curious to know what made you trip and fall down this rabbit hole. Link to post Share on other sites
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