And so the never ending story continues...

[gonetildecember]

This is what i wrote yesterday....

 

"It's been so long since I've posted- and I know I was supposed to let you guys know how things went with my ex at the event- so I am now. I got into a car accident, and have been in between the hospital and bed rest for the past few weeks.. but I'm doing a lot better, so I thought I'd update you.

 

That night went completely against my plan.. He came up to me and said hello and I tried to act unaffected.. but by the end of the night.. we had somehow made plans for the next night. He asked- and he made sucha big deal about promising this time would be different and that he missed me- and then he stood me up.. without even calling. the next day he called and said he was so sorry and that something came up- and said he wanted to make it up to me. but i had to go to him.. i had enough and i said, i didn't stand you up, so if you want to see me, you can come here... he didn't- and I didn't.. and I was so proud of myself.

 

a got into the accident a few days later... i called him a few days after .. he didn't answer.. so I just left a msg saying.. call me back if you can.. he didn't. a few days later I guess he heard about it from someone else.. and called and was mad I had not told him.. he said i should have left a msg saying i got into an accident and he was hurt having to hear it from someone else because it made him feel like just an other ordinary guy in my life.. i responded with i shouldn't have to tell you theres an emergency for you to call.. it was his own fault he didn't call back when he got the msg.

 

Anyways he told me he would try to come visit me the next day as I was on bed rest- and never did and didnt call before he went away for xmas. This morning (new years day) he sent an text saying Happy New Year- I responded "same to you" and said nothing else.

 

i just feel like I've wasted so much time on him, and am so sick of it. I haven't called and have been practicing limited contact.. and I feel so much better, altho I do have my moments when I miss him and feel weak and like calling.. but I know he's not giving me enough.. I'm ready to close this chapter and if it is meant to be, a few years down the road or something if he gets himself together.. HE can CONTACT me and maybe things can happen again.. but I want to start my new year off as a happy single female and I feel that letting go of him is the only way that I can do that.

 

happy new year everyone!"

 

Lol.. so just as soon as I'd written that... what do u think happened... that night he sent me a text at like 12:00 am..asking me what was i doing... we were both just laying in bed and we texted back and forth a few times... Then we stopped and i just went back to watchin tv. So about an hour later he calls and says open your front door. I did... and just looked at him... he said he came to surprise me.

 

So we just sat on my bed and talked about how I was feeling since the accident and he asked to see pictures of xmas and new years.. eventually we just laid in bed and fell asleep.. never talking once about "us" or asking about other ppl as we usually do. In the morning we woke up.. talked a bit.. he kissed me on my forehead and left. And about 5 hours later he sent me a text and said "did u have fun".. i said "yup, did u?" he said "yup" and that was it?

 

I'm not going to be crazy and take this as a grand gesture.. like many have said to D-Lish about her current situation.. it could just be the holidays... or him checking to see if I was still hooked.. but i don't have the feeling of desparation that I used to after me would have contact. I still miss him... but I know that how he treated me wasn't right..and I couldn't settle for that...

 

What do I do now or why do u think he contacted me?...should I just keep doing what I have been?