three years nothing, back from deployment and this?

[beev97_adam]

Well, I really need some help i guess i will give a quick breif, me and my lady freind dated for about 4 1/2 years. we split up and have been split up now for three, we contacted eachother of and on and mean very few times. well she called me about a month before i was supposed to deploy to Iraq. so i sent her a letter with my address there and a small gift nothing big, so i hear from her on the phone i want to say twice.

 

well she never called again so i leave for depoyment i was gone about 8 months and never heard from her. i went to mail call everyday for 8 months and nothing and it was very painful cause the only thing that mattered while i was there was hearing from her.

 

So i got back from deployment on nov 19 and i called her and asked her what the deal was i asked why she said she still loved and why i never heard from her she said she was with the same guy and was very happy so i said ok and asked what she wanted she said basically nothing si said ok and promised i would just let her blend in to the crowd, well three days later i go home on leave and about the twelth day she calls my lil brother and said she wants to meet up with me wich was cool so we meet up twice before i leave and talk for about an hour each time and the next i leave back to base so a week goes by and nothing then she calls and we talk for an hour or two, about every three days.

 

well about two weeks ago the phone calls have increased to two or three a day and then all of a sudden three days ago they stop and today i got a call from a blocked number but nothing was said they just hung and didnt call back so i dont think it was a bad connection or she would have called back.

 

So the problems i have is this when she calls, she calls from a blocked number. She says because she cant trust me and doesnt want me to call and start drama, She doesnt want me to call her at her job cause she doesnt want drama (her and her boyfreinf own a business togather so iguess its understandable) but she tells me she truly love me and that she feels very alone with guy and has for a long time, she tells me how he doesnt ever kiss her and stuff and so on and so on, she always asked what i would think if we were just freinds and i say no way cause it would hurt way to much.

 

she wont give me her cell phone. And there is more stuff but its kinda just smal details, but i want her so bad that i just kind off hang on to it even though sometimes i want to say screw and walk i cant but this crap is really starting to cause alot of resentment towards her and i dont want that and she said it will take her along time before she can trust me again because i cheated at the end of realationship when it was going really bad but she was to and i am the only being held to it she is also mad because she said i treated these other girls a dated better and that means i loved them more wich isnt true i just grew up and she cant seem to understand that.

 

I hope this makes sence i am not very good at writing but i really hope you can see that i am in alot of pain write know and could really use some help and words of wisdom please help.