I cheated on my boyfriend waht do to..I want him back!

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hello ..this is not the first time im on this site, but it is the first time i post something up. well my ex boyfriend now just broke up with me because he found out i had somewhat of an affair with someone else! I know i did but it was not as big of a deal or maybe im wrong. well it

 

all happen with the guy who I thought was only friend one night he rushed me!..as soon as he did that i backed away!..nothign more happened..but days later I kept contact with him which was totally wrong of me..nothing has happened ever since that day!...but I have kept constant communication with him! its not that bad now but couple of months ago it seemed like he was my boyfriend instead of my real boyfriend. my ex new about this but he did not know I kept in touch with him so much!..by the way this guy that was not my boyfriend lives 7 hours away from where I live. so my ex knew i was friends with him and he did not like this at all..and I promised to him over and over that I was goign to stop talking toh im..which i tried but never succedeed,

 

because i saw this guy as such a good friend! I liked talkign to him! later I realized i had a crush on this guy! well tht was it!...i was keeping as he calls it an EMOTIONAL RELATIONSHIP! which is also bad, but like I didnt do much with that guy besides keep talking to him! well my ex found everythign out by looking at all my incoming calls and stuff. now he hates me and says he never wants to talk to me and says me and him will never get back togehter because he cant give me another chance because I cheated on him! I know i did soo wrong I really do, I am extremely sorry for waht I did and i also know that being sorry is not goign to solve or make things better! I dont know what to do, does anyone have any advice? do you think he will ever maybe in the future want to at least be good with me! because he does not

 

want to keep any communication with me at all so that he can get over me! But i dont wnat that NOW I realize how good of a boyfriend he was, he was one of the bset guys ever! is it ever too late to realize what you've lost or are about to loose? is my situation bad enough to the point where he will never ever talk to me again?..we were going to go on our 2 years!..and I love this person and i need help because I know everythig happens for a reason but I jus need some hope or i want to at least hear from someone else that it is completely over! PLEASE HELP ME! give ME SOME ADVICE!