Cheaters can change...

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Hello people..my situation is bad, and long.. but I do have somewhat of hope... but I need you guys' advice...

 

I was with my ex for 3 and a half years total..Over the years, her and I argued quite a bit, and fought, but when the day came to an end, we loved each other very much.. if anything, she loved me so much more. At the two year mark, we were fighting pretty hard for a month straight, and I was losing my patience with this girl. She had trust issues with me, even though they were not warant

 

ed..(at the time) She was too clingy, never let me see my friends without an arguement, and on top of that, didnt even like half my friends.. So one night I got home from work, and I called her, cause that was my nightly routine after work. We got into a HUGE fight, and I pretty much told her I can't do this anymore.. we both hung up in a rage, and I was ANGRY.. I sat there to myself and decided, that I wanted out of the relationship, and that I'll end it the following day..but that night, as I signed onto my messenger service, there was a female f

 

riend online, and we began to chat. She invited me over to hang out, and I knew deep down what she really wanted... but I was already fed up with my woman, and wanted to end it anyway.. so I FOOLISHLY went to her house that night, and we did eventually have sex. The next day, my now ex and I spoke, and argued.. but things didnt go according to plan.. we actually worked our issues out, and decided to keep trying.. now my HUGE mistake was that, I totally messed up the night before.. and I was too scared to tell her.. I didnt sleep with that girl with the intent of cheating, cause I was emotionally done with my ex, but I did cheat.. I didnt tell her.. so for a whole year I kept that secret, and it ate away at me to the point I wasnt treat her the way I

 

should have, cause of the guilt and shame of what I did.. but I totally did and still do love her.. Fast forward to the present.. we fought again pretty bad in the last month, and we both agreed to go on a break.. we agreed on much less contact and giving each other space.. during this time.. (within 3 weeks) I had met another girl, and our personalities hit it off right off the bat.. so we agreed to hang out one night.. that night at her place we ended up having sex..now HERE is where

 

****e smashes the fan.. this new girl I just finished having sex with.. her cell rings..she answers it, and when she came back in the room.. she's like "You have a girlfriend??" and I'm like, "uh no, who is that?" It was my ex.. she broke into my voice mail and retrieved this current girls number.. I was SO screwed.. So to make this story shorter.. she beat the hell out of me the next day, and took back all her gifts she got me.. and gave back all the sentimental things I had given her.. she even gave back the movie stubs from out first date.. that killed me.. oh yeah, and the girl from a year ago that I cheated with? She got in contact with my ex, and informed her of what I did! Keep in mind, she KNEW my situation at the time.. So my ex resented the hell out of me, and rightfully so. This is where I say cheaters can change..

 

I could NEVER do that again to her, or any other woman that puts their trust, emotions, and feelings on me. It killed me to see how much pain she was in, because of my stupid actions.. My ex was honestly the girl I planned to marry, but because I made a stupid mistake.. it may never happen.. Now, present time.. she found a guy 2 weeks later, and within a month, they are now a couple, and I have almost gone off the deep end trying to accept that. Now, where things are weird.. we have talked during the whole time of the breakup..and her stance changes... one day she'll say "I can never go back to someone who cheated.. how can u break my heart? how can u have sex with other women?" And the next day "You know I love you right? I can see myself with you again, if I knew u wouldnt cheat again..This wasnt supposed to happen, I love u so much" and she says these things, while shes

 

in a rebound relationship with this other guy.. Now, I know a lot of people are hating me right now, but no one can tell me that I dont really love this woman, cause I do.. and I want her back. I would NEVER betray her trust again, and I'd be willin to work as hard as I could, to get her trust back.. I would even move her in here with me. I have established the NC, it's been a week, and she's called me 4 to 6 times throughout the week.. leaving two messeges today, asking how I am, and if everything is ok.. I dont answer her calls, cause she tends to bring up her new guy a bit, and.. I also want her to miss me.. just to help in the failure of her rebound relationship.. plus she checks my myspace EVERYDAY...so my question is this.. I have a feeling, we will have another chance down the road, but there are days where I'm doubtful.. cause I did mess up huge.... can love overpower the mess ups I had? Do you guys think that there is hope for us?? Thanking you guys in advance for your responses..