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well, i've been so stressed out. and i've been frustrated. hmm, yeah, i kinda got over it tho...

 

okay, i used to have a bestfriend,D. and i was kinda dating with him. yeah...kind of. and he used to tell me he loved me and that made me like him alot. and i was really in love with him. but we couldnt hang out for about a half year since i had to reside abroad. but we talked on the phone every night and he kept telling me he loved me. but it was bull****.

cause 2weeks before i came to see him, he'd confessed that he came to like somebody else. and he also said that "maybe because of this distance, i couldnt focus on only you and its all my fault." he thinks he shouldnt have gone out with me. and he didnt say that directly but i can tell that he thinks it was just sex.... but at that time, i already got tickets to go there. so i did. i really didnt want to though.

and we spent afew nights. actually he was all over me while i stayed there. and i can't believe why he did that. of course i pushed him back. he still wants sex from me even when he likes somebody else. and i dont want to have sex with a guy that doent love me even if i love him. and the girl he likes has a bf. yeah....she's cheating on him. and he actually has cheated on his gf(ex) before. now i'm like they are cheaters so whatever.... but at the same time, i really am missing old D... i hate D but I really really miss old D...

The distance between us kept us apart. (i don't know if its really true. maybe he never loved me...)Why must love always end with a broken heart? i don't think i can move on. hmm, i can but i can't trust any other boys anymore...they are always spontaneous. they say anything to have sex....and i always believe what they said. and i always get hurt....

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