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I've been reading almost every post here on "how to get-over a girl" and the problem is that my issue is really different from others because that girl is my roommate!!! (How can you forget the feeling for someone you see everyday?)

 

*I'll try to make this as short as possible...

 

One day Michele moved in and 4 days after we had "connected" so much that a relationship started. After 2 weeks I ended the relationship because I was uncertain at the time since she was still a stranger and I did not want to go too far and then really hurt her...so I thought the smart thing to do was to end it. BIG mistake!

 

Now, a bit more then 8 months has passed and I got to really know her during this period of time and I realized that I was so dead wrong to ever think she might not be "the one" in the past. I love everything about her, the funny part is that she is really not what I always belived I would look for in a woman! She is kinda "tom boy" and isn't the prettiest girl but I swear if I had 9 other REALLY Beautiful next to her and I would have to choose... I'd pick her because even the flawless beauty the other girls would have could never compare to the Goddess I see in her.

 

We've been like best friends since we broke up, we live togheter plus we work at the same place too! So I see her every day! Now let's get to the parasite that is snacking on my hearth every time I think of her.

 

I waited for a right moment to tell her how I felt for her and poured my hearth out searching for words to express my feelings and omg was it the most helpless feeling I ever had. I tried so hard to explain to her why did I think it would work now because she kept sticking to "If it did not work then, what makes you think it will now ?!?..." after about 45 mins of telling her why she told me that she did not feel the same way I did... ( man did I feel like jumping off a bridge at that moment) I felt like time had stopped and my hearth was being squeezed to the size of a pea. I had never felt this helpless feeling of being nothing.:sick:

 

Of course, that night I cried myself to sleep and couldn't understand what had happend. The things she had told me kept looping over and over in my head. Now this has been about a month and a half from that night and every morning the first thing I think of is her. We are still good friends like we we're before I told her about my feelings but I just can't accept it. So many clues show's that she still loves me...my friends see this and even her sister tells me sometimes she's conviced Michele still has something for me.

 

Now, some days I can't stop myself from thinking about her and it's hard not too since we live and work together! Now and then I can kinda forget about it all and it feels soooooooo great! But she always gets back in my thoughts and then...my world crumbles again. I try to convince myself that she is probably not the right girl for me but then the other part of me wins over and I "obcesse" about her again...:(

 

There's so much more but I said I would make this short so... I'll keep my word.

 

Please Anyone, any kind of advice will be GREATLY appreciated!!:o

 

 

Mr.Lost

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