Mydish1 Posted February 3, 2007 Share Posted February 3, 2007 In the past I've always been the enthusiastic guy that saw the best in people - even moreso i also found them interesting to know...now it doesnt matter anymore. i dont know if anyone ever feels the same, but as of now I find people boring/uninteresting. Im graduating this semester, and the same group of people have been with me (in my major) for the last year and a half. At the same time I'm sick of seeing/talking to them and at the same time i get along becaues they feel like family. I do some occasionaly temp work (job hopping), but nothing stable or solid. I'm jumping from job interview to job interview in all my job hunts, but it doesnt hit the nail as my field is very competitive. Even so I feel compelled because it is my duty in society to do/nail the job and be optimistic about it - yet at the same time have little interest to talk to the people on the job. I may have found an apartment to move in to...without a stable job, i figure ill dish out what I have in my savings to pay the rent until a solid job comes up in which i can keep the apartment long-term....even so i have a gut feeling my life wont be any different from living at home. Hopefully this change will stir something in me that i havent felt in ages. Basically what I'm trying to say is I have little/no interest in people, yet I'm optimistic and speak to them because it is natural for me to do so. A few weeks ago I did some volunteer work, and i did a damn good job too with a smile...but the strange thing was at the end, i didnt feel good/bad about it - I probably was using it to kill time. My friends are unreliable, when they dont want to hangout or talk, they dont pick up the phone...and when they do they'll be more than happy to. Even in the end, we wind up going out and doing the exact same things. I dont know, i think i just need a smoke or something Link to post Share on other sites
quankanne Posted February 4, 2007 Share Posted February 4, 2007 you feeling this way might be because you are at a crossroads? Kind of bored with the people you're about to leave behind when you graduate and y'all part ways, yet not really wanting to invest in meeting new friends because you're about to leave town. maybe the key is not so much about meeting people, but finding a pasttime or hobby you share with other people who enjoy it the way you do. That way you are assured to have something interesting in common to help break the ice. your smoke sounds good – it'll give you time to ruminate over your kind of jaded feelings about people right now (not a dig, I think we each go through something similar at different times in our lives). Link to post Share on other sites
Author Mydish1 Posted February 4, 2007 Author Share Posted February 4, 2007 you feeling this way might be because you are at a crossroads? Kind of bored with the people you're about to leave behind when you graduate and y'all part ways, yet not really wanting to invest in meeting new friends because you're about to leave town. That is somewhat the case, the people I know on campus are kind of like co-workers - that is how you could describe our relationship. I think my lack of wanting to invest in new friends comes from the sheer fact that everybody else is in the same mode (they dont want to make friends either and everybody has their own sh#t to deal with), and people dont captivate my attention/interest like they used to in the past. maybe the key is not so much about meeting people, but finding a pasttime or hobby you share with other people who enjoy it the way you do. That way you are assured to have something interesting in common to help break the ice. I do have a few pasttimes i share with a few friends, but after awhile it almost becomes a routine. Not to say the least but i have a friend who goes out with his sister and 3 other friends every single saturday for lunch...I cant quite imagine how or why people do the same old things with the same old people for every week as the years go by. Personally something like that isn't in me, because I've always been the guy that demanded more from myself in terms of personal growth and change. I think somewhere down the line in this past year I've managed to lose passion for what mattered most to me. And somehow my last semester seems more like a joke - simply because it isnt what it was hyped up to be. For the first 3 years of college I experienced a lot of personal growth at a fast rate...and oddly enough things now seem to be at a halt or is lagging on. your smoke sounds good – it'll give you time to ruminate over your kind of jaded feelings about people right now (not a dig, I think we each go through something similar at different times in our lives). Im sure it would be, personally I'm not a smoker nor do I intend to be a chain smoker. But the rummaging thoughts of using it as a psychotherapuetic reliever might not be such a bad idea. Link to post Share on other sites
Green Posted February 4, 2007 Share Posted February 4, 2007 U sound kind of jaded. I'm 22 and things seem to be anything but routine fights with random guys, hitting on random girls, and trying to climb the corporate ladder for a bigger peice of that financial pie all seem to be fun things. I say you make new friends if the ones you have now arnt the kind of people you enjoy being around. What is it that you want to do, come on theres got to be something, figure it out and try to do it, thats where you;ll find ur juvination Link to post Share on other sites
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