stuck.....

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I met my fiance two years ago. I was at a low point in my life and thought that i was in love. A few months after we met he asked me to marry him and we are now engaged. I left everything for him, ie. my family, college, friends, everything. To get involved with someone who turned out to be abusive.

 

I knew about a year in that i was no longer in love and found myself realizing that i never was in love with him at all. I tried to leave him several times and ended up coming back because i depended fully on him, he ment everything to me. I was always stuck, i would run away for weeks and feel helpless and we always ended up back together.

 

6 months ago i left the house when he was at work with a goodbye note, i moved got my number changed, everything. I didnt want there to be any way for him to find me and i didnt want to be reminded of him because i knew that i was too week. I know that i dont love him but for some reason i feel like i need him and that i do love him.

 

Well anyways i thought that i finnaly did it! i was living with my mom at the beach and had started my life all over, i got a job and was supporting myself.

I was missing him, and went through all the stages of getting over an addictive relationship and now......

 

He is back he came and found me, ran up to my car window at a stop light on my way to work and i was strong at first i was able to stick up to him.

But shortly with him knowing where i was he was able to suck everything that i had done in that 6 months trying to get over him away.

Now i am stuck completly, i dont feel like running anymore.

please help.