Five years ago I had my first of two radical operations for throat cancer, the second was two years two months after. Although I have been so very lucky to still be here and because i really have healed remarkably well, I now feel destined to never find love again. My neck is the give away to anyone that i have had surgery and my smile is no longer as it was. I am very lucky not to have lost my tongue and voicebox asa was at first thought I might but my speech (although quite strong) is not as i