Five years ago I had my first of two radical operations for throat cancer, the second was two years two months after. Although I have been so very lucky to still be here and because i really have healed remarkably well, I now feel destined to never find love again. My neck is the give away to anyone that i have had surgery and my smile is no longer as it was. I am very lucky not to have lost my tongue and voicebox asa was at first thought I might but my speech (although quite strong) is not as it was so I am self concious about talking to people I don't know.

The other think is, I am now not able to eat/drink as all the radiotherapy has damaged my swallow mechanism so I am fed by a tube in my stomach. All this together is the reason I now don't feel attractive and would avoid attempting to chat to a female even if I was very attracted to her. Don't feel it helps now that I am 57 years of age. It is said that after 55 men become invisible to women so I would like to ask any women out there if they agree with this?

The thought (and I feel much more likely) never to love again is making me step back from socialising and after 5 years living alone I am starting to feel the sadness of lonliness.

I signed up to LoveShack to put how i am feeling out there just to see if anyone else is going through similar feelings?