I am glad to have found this LoveShack forum. Instead of releasing all my thoughts and telling all kinds of stories and past experiences to my friends (yes, they were annoyed), I think it is best for me to write down my recovery journey in this Journal.

Here's a very brief situation about my situation: My ex-girlfriend MiMi dumped me, and for the first few weeks, I did most of things that dumpees should not do, such as begging, pleading, kept texting and calling, etc. On Aug 30th, my ex texted me saying that she was dating someone. It was a disaster night for me and I was extremely shocked! Again, I begged again and sent her a letter (bad idea again!). On Sept 8th, I finally decide to respect her decision and start NC.

I have finally decided to write this journal to track down my status of my recovery. My primary goal now is to focus on myself and build up for the better person. This was my first long-term relationship. Breakup process is really hard, but I know I can go through it with time. At least at this stage, I am able to control myself to not contact MiMi in any way! I am keeping NC all the way until I am 100% healed, I hope. Being single now gives me time to rethink of what I want to pursue in life.