Today I'm still waiting.

WAITING

HOPING

REMINISCING 

HURTING

DELUSIONAL

Yes, I am thinking being delusional again. Life isn't fair at all but need to move on. Step front not backwards, up and downs that's life works. 

Coping Mechanism, currently I have . I still can't accept the fact cause it's too sudden. Still waiting and loyal.

Sharing this here lessen atleast the worries I had . I wanna let you know all that he will be the one I have in my heart , cross it until I die, I already swear it and likewise can't undo it. I don't know what will happen in the future but for sure this feelings for him I had will not be vanished. This journal will be updated which how long it can take.

Your suggestions/comment/ quotations/ and knowledge here which I will receive in the future I'll accept whole heartedly.