God, I can't believe what a fool I've made of myself.

If I only had been patient. Instead I just kept digging a deeper hole.

Now I've lost the one thing I ever wanted.

Gawwwwd....

I am drowning in sea of words. I am an emotional exhibitionist, it's ridiculous. I need to stop now.

I always want to fix everything. I can't let anything go. I am out of control.

Somebody please kill me now.